Chocolate Junkie
Hello my name is Meghan, and I’m a chocoholic….
In my quest for a more healthy lifestyle I decided to eliminate some of the more addictive and unhealthy things in my diet. Namely- chocolate. I said back in September I was going to do it and I never really followed through. So here it is. I am on record now as being four days deep in withdrawls. It’s not much, but I hope that in starting with these small steps I can gain the confidence to give up some of the big ones (aka sugar, cheese, oils).
When I was 13 years old I gave up all meat. I didn’t slowly wean myself from it, I gave it up cold turkey(no pun intended:)). One day I came home and at dinner I told my mom I didn’t want a pork chop because I was never eating meat again. She of course tried to argue the benefits of eating meat, and her and my dad finally decided to drop it, saying “it’s just a phase”. Eleven years later and I’m still a vegetarian.
When I was in High School I gave up all soda. I was a dancer and we were told that carbonation was damaging to our endurance and physique. Goodbye soda! I just stopped drinking it, it wasn’t even hard really.
So why is it so hard for me now to give up certain foods? It has been exactly four days without it. I know because I think about it all the time. My body CRAVES it. Last night Mark was eating some cookies and it was so hard to turn it down when he offered me one. I have this internal argument with myself at least 10x a day- “It won’t hurt to just have one little piece”, “No! I can’t. If I have one piece then I will want another and another. It ends now!”, “Come one, no one will know”, “I will know! If I give in now then I will feel like I failed and I will just fall back into my old ways.” And so on, and so on…
I don’t think that chocolate in and of itself is that bad. I never really had a problem with it before. But since I got pregnant it has been the worst addiction for me. I justify a tall glass of chocolate soy milk before noon. I want a handful of chocolate candies after lunch. I always crave something sweet to end dinner with. That is why I decided to give it up all together. Until I can control my cravings to the point where I could just have one piece and call it good, I cannot be trusted to eat chocolate at all.
Maybe if I don’t eat chocolate for long enough the cravings will finally go away. I’m taking things step by step, day by day.
Wow, I seriously sound like a junkie:)
I’m pathetic.
Woo! Go Meghan, go! I also don’t think chocolate is necessarily “that bad” but I feel your pain in terms of cravings. For me, a little bit does make me want lots more. :)
Good for you for sticking with your goal.
It’s okay, baby. I’ll help you ditch the habit. Maybe you should think about nice, healthy fruit more?
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Oh Meg! I’m so proud! You’re not pathetic…you’re a Walker. Sorry but that is the cold hard truth. I also have to finish dinner with something sweet and am also trying to cut that habit. You can do it I have complete faith in you! Keep me updated on how it’s going.