Enjoying the Journey

Since Reese is a week short of her first birthday, last Sunday was indeed my first official Mother’s Day. Last year on Mother’s Day I was filled with excitement over meeting this sweet baby girl and I couldn’t wait to be a Mommy. Mark was great and even though I wasn’t technically a mommy yet, he treated me as if I was one for Mother’s Day.

Fast forward one year. It feels strange still to call myself a Mom. Moms are grown-ups. Moms are responsible and organized. I can’t be a Mom. Seriously, I still forget sometimes that Reese is mine. Maybe it’s all of those years of babysitting but sometimes I have a reality check moment when I go “Oh yeah, you are MY baby. I’m a MOM”. It’s still strange.

Mother’s Day this year was great. I’m ashamed that there are no pictures, but it was a very relaxed day and I didn’t feel like whipping out the camera. Mark made me breakfast in bed and we hurried off to church at our usual 20-minutes late time. After church we just relaxed and played with Reese. We took a long walk in the evening to the park and pushed Reese on the swings and then we took her home at put her to bed. It sound like a boring day, but really it was heaven after last week and the mountains of tasks I have yet to accomplish. It felt nice to spend a day just being with the people I love.

My Mother’s Day Resolutions:

1. Learn to say “no”. I don’t have to agree to do everything everyone asks of me simply because I don’t want to let them down. It’s important for me to have more down time at home with Reese. It’s important for me to focus on my family and my daughter, and me.

2. Stop being so judgmental of other people. It’s something I do in times of insecurity and I hate it. I need to care less about what others think of me and also be more positive and understanding when I look at others instead of finding faults in them to make myself feel better.

3. Be a better wife. I get so focused on all the other things in my life sometimes that I think Mark tends to get the short end of the stick. It’s because he is so wonderful and understanding and never complains about me spending time on other things. So I get busy and suddenly he is fending for himself for dinner, and spending the evening alone while I work on the computer, or watching Reese on the weekend while I run errands. He never complains. I need to be more protective of my time with him.

News:

As Mark cryptically wrote in the last post, my adorable sister Kellee is getting married in September. I’m thrilled for her and I’m so excited that she chose to marry someone who I truly enjoy spending time with and think is a great guy.

August-September this year is going to be a bit hectic. We will be going to a family reunion the first week of August in Utah. Also, I was just hired to photograph a wedding in August. Then I will also be co-photographing Kellee’s wedding in September. Yeah. crazy. I won’t be leaving the house much those next few months I think. Editing photos takes FOREVER!

I have talked to my moms and when school lets out for the summer I think babysitting will be kaput. I’m relieved. It feels great to have made a decision that will help me get my life back a little. Granted, I will be stuck at home more working on my computer. But at Least Reese will be playing instead of always being in a car seat or me carrying her around because other people’s houses aren’t baby-proofed. Yeah. This was the right decision.

Anyways, that’s it for my ramblings and news. Until I have time again!