100 Truths

This is a list that has taken me a few days to write. My sister-in-law wrote one, and I was truly moved by some of the things she shared that I never knew about her. I have been doing some deep reflection ever since because there are things about myself that I don’t like, but that I can’t or won’t change. This is who I am. I can’t apologize for that. It’s hard to share some of the things you don’t like about yourself, or some of the things you wish were different. I am not where I want to be. But maybe by facing these truths I will be able to work on these things and become the person I want to be.

I encourage you to write your own list. You never know what you might discover about yourself.

Losing a sister, but gaining a…Zank?

My little sister is getting married. It’s strange. For 4 years now my older sister and I have been the only siblings in my family who are married. It wasn’t weird for me to see by older sister get married, it just seems like what older sisters do. But having my younger sister get married is a bit weird for me. In my mind she is eternally the age she was when I left home-15. And even though consciously I know that she is an adult of 22 now with a career and living away from home, my immediate reaction when I found out she was getting married was “no way, you are far too young”! Ummm, she’s 2 years older than I was when I married Mark. I worry that she hasn’t known him long enough. Ummm, she’s known him just as long as I knew Mark when we got engaged.

I guess I just hate change, even when that change is something that makes my little sister so happy. As you saw in an earlier post, they came to visit us last weekend. It was good for me to see how in love they are, and how happy they make eachother. It has calmed my fears a lot. I still hate to let go of my little sister, but I have to remember that I’m not losing a sister, I’m gaining a fun bother-in-law.