Sometimes I Still…
Sometimes I still sneak into your room at night and watch you sleep. I watch the rise and fall of your small chest and allow my frazzled nerves to slowly relax. I watch the way your dark eyelashes brush your cheek and the way your small mouth hangs open just a bit as you sleep so deeply. I tuck your blanket up to your chin and allow myself to gently stroke your hair with one hand. All I want to do is pick you up and hold you tight. It’s been hours since you went to bed and I miss my little girl’s smiles and giggles. For now though, I will let you sleep. I will dream up fun things for us to do in the morning, ways that I can induce your grins and bring curiosity to your eyes. I will go to bed worrying if I’m being the best mommy I can be, and how I can do better.
But in this moment, my cares melt away and I feel content, because you are still my little girl.
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The Adventure begins!
My husband and I have passed the previous 4 1/2 years of wedded bliss pretty uneventfully. So it seems only right to rock the boat and bring some babies into the mix to enhance and brighten (aka stress and complicate) our lives. Our first baby girl was born in May 2007 and we’ve been enjoying stumbling through the ups and downs of parenting ever since. We look forward to this adventure we are embarking on and hope this blog helps you to follow along as we share about the trials and joys of parenthood!
Ah, what a sweet picture! Of course, my question is — how did you sneak in there and snap a picture without waking her up and in the dark? :)
@Jen
I used light from the hall and turned up my ISO to about 800. I could have gone up higher since I knew I wanted to convert to black and white in post processing and the graininess of the higher ISO would not have looked bad in black and white. I also shot at 1.4 aperture which is the most light-sensitive f-stop my lens has. If you keep the canon rebel you should buy this lens: http://www.amazon.com/Canon-50mm-1-8-Camera-Lens/dp/B00007E7JU/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=electronics&qid=1244847298&sr=8-1
It is the sames as the one I just got but just .4 difference in the f-stops:). Basically, you can take photos without flash in darker lighting situations.
Oh, and she usually DOES wake up as I have mentioned before, I guess she was just really tired last night and didn’t wake up at all when I went in to check on her. Of course she DID wake up when she heard the camera clicking:).
That was so sweet and makes me want to have a little one. I miss Reesie piece!
We’re the same way! I’ll have just put Vienne to bed, and Sam says, “I miss Our Girl. Let’s go get her!”
Just last night I had to check on her before I went to sleep, and I wanted so desperately to pick her up and bring her to bed with me. That would have been a nightmare, but the urge is just so strong!
That is Beautiful, Meghan!